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2006-09-20T18:22:00.000-07:00

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hey there.. how hav u guyz been.. well.. i hav been bz workin.. n extending long hours.. well.. hav 2 lar.. siince i nvr work 4 2wks straight.. hey.. guess wad... without me knowing.. itz goin to b the fasting mth soon.. which is this fri.. haix.. so fast sia.. haha.. tatz means.. hari raya cuming soon.. haha.. well.. itz not tat im goin 2 get money anymore..
well.. i hav also been happy tis few mths.. thanx 2 her.. thanx awk.. no words can describe my feelings 4 u.. u lighted up my life.. 4 tat.. im thanxful 2 u n Nya... hope tat our relationship will last long... I LOVE U!!!
to all my muslim frenz out there.. Slamat Berpuasa.. Jgn tak puasa eh.. hehe..
well.. tatz all 4 2dae.. gtg.. take care all...

2006-09-12T06:53:00.000-07:00

I don't know what he does to make you cry,
but I'll be there to make you smile.
I don't have a fancy car,
to get to you I'd walk a thousand miles.
I don't care if he buy you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart? - I don't know...
But if you were my girl...
I'd make it so we'd never be apart.
Chorus:
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give.
When you talk - does it seem like he's not
even listening to a word you say?
That's okay babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away...
Does he leave when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time?
Baby please... I'm on my knees
praying for the day that you'll be mine!!
Chorus
Bridge:
To you...Hey Girl,I don't want you to cry no more - inside
All the money in the world could never add up to all the love
that I have inside ... I Love You baby
Bass break:
And I will give it to you
All I can give,all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give
Drum break & Chorus 3x and out:
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you ... but
Love is all I have to give...to you.

hey.. wad a song ryte.. hehe.. itz an old song.. but.. the meaning is there man.. hehe.. well.. i had a wonderful time 2dae.. spend the day wif her.. but.. felt abit guilty.. bcoz she got alot of homework 2 do n she still go out wif me.. but.. she explain 2 me why she did tat.. so.. im fine wif tat.. juz tat.. next time.. do tell me k tat u hav homework 2 do n u nid a break k..
well.. im hapi tat the past 3mths.. she is there wif me.. weali make me happy.. tanx awk.. i duno wad 2 do without u... n.. there is no words tat can describe the feeling i hav when im wif u.. hope tat our relationship will last long.. LOVE U AWK!!!

tatz all 4 todae.. n awk.. the song is 4 u..

2006-09-10T05:46:00.000-07:00

Hey there.. sowie I hav not been updating for quite a while.. well.. I hav been very bz wif tings.. n my internet connection is not so gd.. so.. didn’t blog ar.. hehe..

Well.. I hav been doin fine.. juz finish a week full of ncc stuffs.. frm sea comp on mon n tues.. to SSC frm wed to fri.. n finally nc day dinner on sat.. u can say tat I hav a very b week.. hehe.. well.. I was also involve wif a conflicts wif my sea clts during SSC.

Wad happen is tat.. for tis year SSC, we combined wif the east district.. n apparently.. the sea clts tinks tat they r the best n do not wan to mix ard wif the east ppl.. as 4 me.. I mix ard wif them a lot more than the sea ppl.. why u ask.. bcoz I tink that their attitude sux.. tatz why.. and on the 2nd day.. I get into a conflict wif the sea ppl when I tok 2 the cadets.. n.. frm wad I heard. There is a cadet went to the clts n say tat I said babd tings abt them n they r not happy about it.. well… I DUN GIV A DAMN ABT WAD THEY TINK.. I said wat I hav 2 say 2 the cadets.. so if they r not happy wif that.. itz their probz.. n on the POC.. the east ppl shouted ‘battleship destroyed’..haha.. 2 me n them.. it was supposed to b a joke.. but.. the sea clts took it too seriously.. haha.. which makes me tink.. if I, the oldest there can take it as a joke, why cun they.. I mean.. they dun even respect the sea cadets.. make them do a lot of shit tings n embarrassed them in front of the east cadets.. why shud other ppl respect the cadets.. n.. where were they after the POC.. why wasn’t they there to motivate n encourage the cadets.. where the FCUK were they.. hiding sumwhere izit.. I duno.. well.. I noe I was there wif the cadets all the way.. so FCUK it lar… some sea clts are a bunch of egoistics, power crazy freak tat cares abt their own face..

Enuf of tat.. haha.. I m fine now.. hoping to catch up wif my life n lookin forwards to y enlistment.. btw.. Congratz to all the cadets that hav graduated the SSC.. n to the east ppl.. thanx 4 the time during SSC.. hope u guyz hav fun as I had.. haha..

Till den.. take care.. gtg…
DOC CIKO OUT!!!

2006-08-06T05:05:00.000-07:00

hey there.. guess i haven been updating 4 quite a while.. ahaha.. dun worie... im still alive.. hehe.. n m happier than ever.. cun be happier.. tanx 2 sumone... tanx awk.. ureally cheer up my life wif ur presence..
hey.. guess wad.. 25 july was MY DAE.. ahaha.. wad i mean?? well tat dae was my BIRTHDAY!!! haha.. 1 yr older liao.. hehe.. hey.. now i hav change the 1 to 2.. hehe.. yeah.. im 20 years old now.. hahaha.. itz not older kay.. itz more matured now.. hahaha.. ok..so ytd i go out wif her.. first went 2 the library 2 return her books.. n to loan some books oso.. hahaha.. guess she is a bookworm huh.. hehe.. after tat we went to marina square.. hehe.. to watch POTC dead man's chest.. hehe.. the show was great.. u guyz shud catch it man.. wonderful.. hehe..to all my frenz tat sent their wishes... i say tanx so much.. i appreciate u guyz remember my birthday.. tanx awk 4 the movie.. i weali enjoy it.. n tanx 4 spending the time on my birthday wif me.. haha.. tanx 4 the present.. i like it so much.. i wish tat we weali remain happy 2gether..
ytd hav been spending 2 daes in the jungle.. practicing 4 the opening ceremony of the National Camp.. hope it will go well.. i mean.. it is very hard 2 control wad hapen in the water.. looking forward to the National Camp.. hey.. tmr is my 2nd mth wif her.. haha.. so glad tat we can last this long.. well.. guess i will b bz tis cuming weeek..
k guyz.. tatz all 4 2dae.. gtg..
DOC CIKO OUT!!!!

SYF over!!!

2006-07-02T20:08:00.000-07:00

hey there.. yesterday was the most proudest day of my life.. hehe..

ytd was 1 july.. SYF day.. i woke up weali early ytd.. haha.. i didnt noe why.. i was so nervous.. never felt tis way b4.. maybe bcoz it was at NATIONAL STADIUM.. hehe.. but i try not 2 tink abt it much.. so i reach the stadium at ard 12plus.. hehe.. had lunch.. size up my contigent.. n got ready 4 the rehearsal.. i wont ay it is a rehearsal.. coz we juz walk the ground n practise the marching out part.. i was so nervous that i make alot of mistakes.. haha... duno why.. after tat.. ad our break n time 2 get ready 4 the actual parade... i was still feeling nervous.. cun believe it ryte.. even 3sg pan ask me not 2 b so nervous n relax myself.. haha.. well.. i walk ard the stadium alone.. wif my mp3.. haha..
den.. it is time 2 get ready.. i change 2 my full uniform.. haha.. while waitin 4 the time 2 march in.. i try 2 make the contigent relax.. but i myself was feeling nervous.. i wont blame dem.. 2 gerls cried b4 the marchin in.. hehe..

den... suddenly.. it is time 2 march in.. haha.. suddenly the feeling gone.. i duno why.. it is weali gone.. i was very relax.. weird?? ya i noe... hehe.. everyting was goin fine.. i was feeling ok.. den duing the marc out.. i was very confident of myself.. as tat was my last time marchin in my ncc unform.. hhehehe.. after my contigent had pass out of the stadium.. i received news tat onli both sea n air contigents tat didnt make any mistakes.. hehe.. i was very proud of my contigent..

to tat someone special.. sowie 4 not telling u tat i hav a blog.. hehe.. sowie awk.. n tanx 4 being there 4 me.. if ever u nid me.. u noe how 2 get me aite.. i will alwae b there 4 u..n dun care much abt ur frenz aite.. im weali glad tat i found u in my life.. tanx 4 being in my life.. kite bresyukur padaNya.. hope tat tis wil last long..

Hi Guys!

2006-07-02T01:56:00.000-07:00

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2006-06-28T20:10:00.000-07:00

hey there.. how hav u guyz been.. haha.. i noe.. i noe.. itz been such a lon time since i update aite.. god noes how long already.. well.. im fine.. dun worrie.. hapi go lucky.. haha.. i hav been meditating inside a cave.. haha.. tatz why i hav not been updating.. hehe.. well.. alot of tings hav happen..

i m more happy now than ever b4.. tatz 2 sumone.. i weali appreciate u been there 4 me evertime.. tanx.. n u hav also matured my tinking in love.. even though ur tat age.. ur tinking is much more matured than an older gerl than u.. thanx so much 4 been in my life.. haha.. n dun worie k.. i will keep my promise 2 u k..

well guyz.. tis sat is a very important day 4 me.. It SYF parade.. n im in it.. im the NCC(SEA) contigent commander.. haha.. my last project 4 ncc.. n i juz realize tat it will also b the last time syf will b held ther b4 the stadium is being demolished.. haha.. im sure gona cherished the moment.. wish me luck..

gtg.. bubye..!!!

2006-05-22T05:47:00.000-07:00

hye there.. sowie 4 not been updating 4 so long.. some problem wif the connection.. n also.. im bz workin n stufff.. so sowie k.. well.. basically.. im doin fine.. juz tat beeen very tired after work.. as usual.. where got work not tired ryte.. the funny ting is tat i m gettig damn long hours 4 my work... haha.. im glad 4 tat.. tat means tat more money n can settle all my debts 2 ppl.. so sowie 2 those ppl tat i owe money 2.. i will pay u back k..
basically i remembered tat day when i went out wif uncle n the gang.. was surprised 2 see fidaae n azim there.. together.. hehe.. we went pool n one by one started 2 leave.. in the end.. itz onli me, uncle tasha n rafiq.. after which we went 2 mit farah n her fren SYAAZA.. after that we went lau pa sat... where else can we go ryte..
went 2 sentosa wif the ncc ppl laz sat.. was fun.. tiring.. will describe more abt it at my future blogs...

2006-04-28T01:30:00.001-07:00

hey there.. i hav tis song tat is stuck in my head 4 now.. the song is DAMN meaning full to me.. actually got it long time ago.. but didnt pay attention 2 it until recently..

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sukarnya untuk ku melepaskan mu

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datang kembali mengenang cinta dahulu

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how was it man.. it was damn meaning full 2 me.. reminded me of sth tat happen laz year.. i juz dun understand.. tanx azim 4 sending me tat song man..
itz been quite a while tat we hav been toking on the fone.. why is tis so... r u bz.. r u avoiding me.. i noe tat i hav been the one tat is bz to tok 2 u.. but.. is tat the reason why.. i noe u dun wan me 2 tok abt u in my blog.. if not u WLL NVR TOK TO ME AGAIN.. but.. i juz hav 2.. tis is my onli way of communicating wif u.. i wont eply my msgs.. on msn oso u wont eply me.. WHY? I JUZ WANA NOE WHY?? tatz all.. if i hav done sth wrong.. plz tel me so tat i noe. everyone noe how much u mean 2 me.. im willing 2 do anyting 4 u.. even erasing all my previous entries.. wad else u wan frm me.. tel me... i juz dun understand.. WHY R U DOIN TIS 2 ME?? izit bcoz u hav found sumone else.. even if u do.. do tel me so tat i wont bother u gain.. i noe i might b jumping 2 conclusion.. so tel me so tat i noe the real reason behind ur disappearence.. i juz dun understand.. if after u read tis n u wont tok 2 me ever again.. so be it.. but b4 u do tat.. JUZ TELL ME WHY.. TATZ ALL I ASK.. WHY????

2006-04-28T01:30:00.000-07:00

2006-04-22T19:42:00.000-07:00

Hey there.. sowie 4 not been updating lately.. was bz workin n stuffs.. ok.. let me give u a complete overview of my week so far..

MONDAY
I was workin on tis dae.. was quite fun.. I duno why but Im starting 2 open up to the guyz at coffebean.. haha.. I noe.. well at work.. usually I was the quitest one.. haha.. hard 2 believe ryte.. haha.. I noe.. but itz true.. hehe.. so now.. im staring 2 make noise n stuffs.. juz hope tat I dun irritate the rest can already.. haha.. wana noe wad.. I was doin he EB station tat dae wif karmilah.. n guess wad.. I notice tat 2 guys was looking at her.. I told her tat maybe they wan her no.. haha.. guyz wad.. haha.. she dun believe me.. to my surprise.. dey weali do.. dey approach the station n ask her 4 her no.. haha.. but she say tat she was attached.. haha.. too bad.. so they juz exchange msn add.. haha.. nice one there karm.. haha.. as 4 me.. I juz smile all the way..

TUESDAY
It was TF part A.. I was quite enthusiastic abt it ar at first.. well.. I duno why. But I weali was.. tot tat it would be fine teaching dem.. BUT!!!! Tel u.. it wud b the last tyme im taking TF 4 part A man.. dey were driving me nuts man.. I noe lar it was the first tyme they hold rifle.. but still.. not nid 2 be so like wad ryte.. haha.. had a hard tyme teaching them.. lucky 4 me.. Natasha was there.. SO.. she becum my scapegoat.. haha.. thanx nat.. hehahaha.. after everyting.. we went 2 J8 to see azim n syafiq work.. n mit uncle n farah as well.. actuali.. I didn’t wana go.. I was damn tired n I hav SYF trg the next, but,, she beg n beg me.. n she even willing 2 pay 4 my transport fee.. SO.. we went eventually.. but end up.. haix.. tink those over there noe what happen.. duno wana say so much..

WEDNESDAY
I was having SYF trg on tat day.. the trg was fun.. except 4 the time tat I cut myself while doing HORMAT SENJATA.. duno which fucker put a metal tingy at the charging handle.. n I cut myself.. n now.. I hav a long line on my hand.. haha.. nice man.. haha.. after tat.. me n khairi went 2 J8( again) to mit Natasha n azim.. had a great time wif dem.. n Natasha had a problem wif sumone.. but I dun wana tok abt it.. they say everyting settle already.. so I dun wana start it again.. den natasah n syafiq.. haix.. duno wad 2 say man..

THURSDAY
It wa quite a boring day ar 4 me.. wake up n get ready 2 go 2 work.. at work.. had fun working wif fahmi, curt n ijah.. although curt was quite irritating.. but.. I guess everyone hav the part of them tat makes ppl irritated.. haha.. n guess wad.. we overshot our timing wif the transport.. haha.. end up.. I reach home at 3am..

FRIDAY
It was a vey tiring day.. I wake up at 9plus.. 2 iron my shirt n stuffs.. end up.. my shirt was quite wet.. so wif all my might.. I iron it..haha.. after tat.. went 2 work.. had a lot of fun although I was damn tired.. haha.. after work… I was very happy 2 see FARAH, UNCLE SUKH, n ameerdeep outside of my outlet.. haha.. thanx man.. we went to look 4 place 2 eat proper foods.. but we cudnt find.. end up we eat at KFC..

SATURDAY
I went 2 bugis juz now.. for the dance competition.. it was a lot of fun.. but.. too bad.. it was a tough fight 4 the 10 place at the final.. weali tot cud make it to the final.. but.. didn’t.. anyway.. congratz to MC(mystique creationz) 4 making it 2 the semi final.. next tyme k we will make it.. haha.. actually weali wanted my frenz 2 cum n see the competition.. it was suppose to be a surprise 4 dem.. but.. they all cudnt make it.. nvm den.. lucky they nvr cum.. didn’t make it to the final.. haha.. nvm ar.. after the comp.. wet 2 mit khai n her guy( alif). Den went 2 my outlet.. she wanted 2 apply 4 the jobs.. but she was damn scared 2 mit the manager.. haha.. in the end.. she got the job.. happy 4 her..

Tatz all abt my week.. haha..

PS: I hav been tinking abt tis man.. it seem 2 me tat everyone is claiming 2 be FRENZ 2 each other.. n regard each other as family members.. but ryte.. as I look back ar.. tat is juz wad they say.. but they dun do wad they say.. n it seem 2 me tat.. sum ppl would weali do things 4 their FRENZ.. but their FRENZ would not do a simple tings 4 that SUMONE.. is tat wad u kol FRENZ.. I duno man.. isn’t FRENZ suppose 2 be there when their FRENZ need help n stuffs.. but from wad I see so far.. it is alwaez tat SUMONE doing everyting for his FRENZ.. but when tat SUMONE ask his FRENZ to do sth 4 him.. HIS FRENZ would not do it.. haix.. I duno.. itz juz wad I feel..

N I cun believe it man.. how cud frenz do tis 2 his own frenz.. I mean he already hav a gerlfrenz n he still wana go 4 the gerl tat his frenz r goin after.. is tis kol FRENZ???
I am also wondering why ar.. why r ppl easily irritated by me tis few days.. is itz bcoz me being so insensitive or ppl r juz too sensitive nowadays.. haix.. I duno ar..

FINALLY, IM SOWIE IF ANYTING I HAV SAY HURTS ANYONE OF U.. I DUN MEAN TO HURT U GUYZ..

FUCK OFF!!!!!!

2006-04-13T20:45:00.000-07:00

hey there.. u guyz muz b surprise at my blog ryte.. haha.. well.. the is some problemz n i juz hav 2 delete all my entries.. u wana noe wadz the reasons.. cum n find me n i will tell u.. it juz suck noe.. i mean.. ppl trying 2 control ur personal life.. how wud u feel if i did tat 2 u.. well.. i juz hav 2 do it so.. there goes all my previous entries.. haix.. itz juz like erasing ur past memories.. u noe how hiring is tat.. VERY VERY hurting u noe.. but.. i guess.. some ppl juz duno how 2 kip away frm other ppl personal life.. anywhere.. if u guyz r wondering who is the one who updated the last entry.. haha.. the person 4get 2 put the name.. haha.. EXPECTED ar.. haha.. itz NATASHA.. tanx tasha..

i weali cun get it.. why muz ppl are abt other ppl life when their own life is in a mess.. can anyone explain 2 me why.. is it wrong 2 like someone lower ranking than urself.. i dun tink there is anyting wrong wif that.. as long as u noe where 2 draw the line ar.. n i tink i hav drawn tat line very clearly... so wadz the problemz.. n i mean.. tis is my blog.. MY PERSONAL BLOG.. no one force u 2 cum n see tis.. so juz FUCK OFF n DUN BOTHER MY FUCKING LIFE CAN..!!!! I NOE WHERE THE LINE IS K.. WHAT THEY PREACHED IS NOT WHAT THEY DO.. FUCK OFF AR.. TO TAT SOMEONE.. IF U READ TIS N GET HURT.. IM SO SOWIE.. I JUZ HAV 2 GET IT OUT MY CHEST.. WAD TASHA SAY IS TRUE.. HAIX.. FUCK OFF!!!!!! N IM NOT REFERING 2 U K BF...

as 4 2dae.. i will b meeting the gang at ard 6.30pm.. tasha goin 2 treat us pizza.. haha.. tanx tasha.. tmr is my payday.. haha.. finally.. after so long waiting.. ahaha..

2006-04-12T06:28:00.000-07:00

harlo ppl...i noe tis is ridzman blog but im so into his account! hahakz! coz his computer down n im here to help him update...firstly i want to say dat he wont be really updating animore coz his comp down n due to some other reason which i oso donnoe n i anihow write..hahakz...k ridzman...aku da update tuk ko..hee...cherioz!